CONFUSED!! 
I'm bloody hell confused now.
I feel as though Fate is playing with me,
it's like taking everything away.
Netball, love, studies.... 
And all.):
 
I dont know what to do next,
any advices?
)': Hmmms.
 
Lord, 
I need You.
But I need her as well.):
 
I need help,
maybe I should be sent to counselling.):
Damned.
 
I feel like crying out loud.)':